Whatcha Doing [Part 1]

Still awkward doing this but let's take it slowly. It has been a good 7 years since I left. Despite my studies now require writing and reading a lot but doing this is another level of difficulty. Moreover I the type who doesn't really express much in real life. Nevertheless, I think this is the best medium for me to be able to convey or to reveal my thoughts and inner feelings about what has happened around me in those 7 years.
Foremost, I definitely have to express my gratefulness to the Almighty God, Allah s.w.t for all the blessings that I got until today. I received an abundance of blessings for 20 years. Alhamdulillah
I would like to unfold it all in today's post. More like a summary or recap of my life(?) I won't get further in the stories, just very few main point that has taken a great turning point in my life. The full story however still will be written after I sort out and recall all of the things in my brain, haha Although no one would ever care, I just do it for my own pleasure. Won't it be great to be able to look back to all those joyful moments? Let's consider it as my personal journal and you guys are lucky to read it haha && without further ado.... let's go!
It might be proper to start on why I go missing right? The definite reason for it of course because of school. From the very previous post, I stated that I might go to boarding school since it was my mom's wish and like an obedient child (at that time) I get enrolled in the school. So from 2013-2017, I spend my teenage years mostly at school. I made a lot of friends while being in there. There is quite a kind of people I knew. Everyone is different and I was so lucky to have all those people during my high school, without them surely my life will get so boring while finishing school life. My journey starting high school until I graduate was full of various emotions, there is a time I love the school and sometimes I despise it. However, my favorite memory from the school of mine was definitely the time I spent together with my dearest friends. We were so close and tight. I miss the bond we had at that time. Nowadays, we get lost in touch after 3 years since school ended. There are only some friends that I keep in touch with. Boarding school is fun! At first , not gonna lie though I was scared! Only after getting to know my new friends at the moment, I was relieved! For the first 2 weeks, I keep on crying with one of my roommates. We were so crybaby back then. We even made a promise to change school after a year but lol we stayed for freaking five years. How did I lose time so quickly?
If you asked me the best year I ever had during my school year is actually I can't pick! So many things happen during high school. When I was a freshman I was totally a naive student. I can't even wear tudung properly and has to help by my senior lol. Everything seems new to me and I find it amusing. I learn how to do daily chores properly thanks to boarding school. Meanwhile, for sophomore year, I think it was fun too! During sophomore, I learn to socialize cause I get to know people more than I knew during freshman since I was transferred outta my class so suddenly to another class. The new class were quite wild than my old class haha That class was my favorite class throughout the whole 5 years I was studying and last but not least my senior year, I got confessed by someone, dislike by other people, the embarrassing moment is uncounted on how many it has happen. My self-esteem was also down during my senior year. I lose so much confidence and always feel insecure. Maybe because of the important exam that I had to face that year and the project paper I had to submit. The fussy and messy project that brings me stress. Nevertheless, it was still enjoyable cause I got my friends with me. We were struggling together till the end of the senior year and right until the last paper of the exam. They also were kind to help me when I had my usual menstrual pain a day before a killer subject exam, they sneak out from the hostel and bought me a heat pack and medicine when they supposed to study or do a revision. That was the most memorable moment for me. I am forever thankful for them & I think I always the worst than the other students but it was not the case actually. You have your own pace, don't ever compare yourself with each other people. That was the unsaid rules. Although you had so many regrets and wish to have done it better. Just enjoy yourself to the fullest. My high school year brings me joy. It defines me as who I am today.
Phew It was past midnight now, I think I better stop now since I have class tomorrow morning. Will continue later! Till then
2013-2017
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